Nano and Other News

So, it's a lovely day in October, nice and warm, but soon it shall be cold, and soon I shall attempt Nanowrimo, or National Novel Writing Month.

Yes, I know, it seems so strange since I completely failed at Camp Nano and that was during the summer, back when I had time. Why should I attempt to do something like that during the school year when I have absolutely no time thanks to activities. Academic Team's starting up soon as well and I'm not the loner who writes all the time anymore.

That's another issue: Changes. Now I socialize and I'm not shy, nor am I not as introverted as before. Suddenly it feels strange to spend my mornings writing in the library. I feel as if I should be talking to my friends. School's coming down on me with an iron fist and I'm struggling to survive it. By the time I'm alone and can write, I feel to tired to. I don't like that. I want to write all the time again. I've been writing Sparks, but it's going painfully slow. I'm half convinced I should give it up, but, I need it and I refuse to go back to old habits.

I guess that's why I'm doing Nano, so I can get back into writing again. Because I do love it, I really do, but, it's just like, I never feel like doing it and when I do, I ignore it. I don't like that. I want to write more. All the time instead of getting a page every few days. I can't even remember the last time I wrote.

I hate this, so I've come to the conclusion that whenever I have free time, I shall fill it with writing. Whenever I'm not socializing or doing school-related things, I shall write. It may be difficult at first, but it'll be wonderful to actually be a writer again.